During school year I live like 100 km away from my home in an appartment together with my roommate. She does not actually live here because she spends almost every day with her boyfriend. So I am practicly alone. And my best frend is my computer.
My typical day would look like this. I get up at 6:45, have breakfast, brush my teeth, get dressed, walk to school, have classes untill 14:00. Go to lunch or preapare it myself. Sometimes have more classes untill 17:00. Than I would go home and I would sit in front of a book and think. Think about everything else except what I would suppose to think. To play it simple: I just would not study. Instead of it I would watch movies, sleep, go to aerobics, fantasize about my like, eat, masturbate, surf the internet, etc. As I said - anything except studying. Nad the biggest problem is I would not find it problematic. There is a tiny voice in my head teling me not to worry beacause there is plenty of time. At that moment exams are just billions of days away.
The biggest problem of them all is daydreaming. It would just go on and on and I would not even realize it. Sitting in front of a book on the same page for hours. Sounds familiar? Well, it happends to me every day. I cannot concentrate for days because of it. When I finally can, I find out that I cannot remember anything the book says. So I keep on dreaming. It is like a circle that never stops. Fucking circle that got my brain on fire and I wasted a year of my life.
The thing I am pissed about the most is that I did not enjoy it at all. I would not mind failing a year because of incredible expeiences like traveling, meeting new people, becoming a better person, loosing weight. But I failed it sitting in my room with death pale skin and obese. Do you get it?
